Sad

yup,i’m really quite sad because I just got kicked out from contextual-style.com. It was my fault that I hadn’t checked my spammed messages. I feel so bad because I wan’t to have a good reputation as a blogger. I’m really sad  because I lost an opportunity. I feel bad.

Anyhow I’m trying to check new things out. I do hope I’ll be able to withstand this disappointment.(T.T)

GO!!!!GO!!! APRIL GO!!!

missing the others

can’t just help feeling that I am lost in this world. I mean it. I just want to know that I could still count on those people I’ve failed.

I’ve missed a lot of things lately and among them are those I treasure most. Why am I feeling this way?

I miss people who doesn’t miss me.

He’s somewhere out there.

There he is the one I am not to love.

It would cost much when one keeps oneself fro denying what is intensely felt.

Yet I shudder in fear of the impossibility…

of reaching him,

of touching him,

and

of seeing him.

There are others but there’s a ‘him’ that nobody else could fill in.

These are the troubles of a young heart that crept as she succumbs into deeper devastation for keeping a lot of things to herself. The light shines into a path where she stops to rest but she never made it through that darkness. That light eventually died out from her eyes.