the harder it becomes 1

whew..looks like i’ve had tough months-no blogging and no social life-and what’s hurting is that my thesis sucks.i don’t like how things are going and i don’t mind changing direction now. i think i don’t have enough time to do the things i want to. i want to read books and digest the stories slowly but i don’t have leisure time to do so. there are a lot of upcoming exams and events and i don’t kn ow if i can still have a quiet time i so desire.

this is #1. i’m so overly stressed. hey my knee joints hurt. maybe i need to drink arthricin(–,)> it’s all because of soccer. it’s always on my mind especially now that i’m appointed captain. yeah, i love being captain and i love playing but what stops me are my knees. imagine me being old with my knees giving up on me. funny yeah. anyway, i can’t give up soccer now. i just need to push myself harder and harder until it becomes so hard my feet runs away from me.funny again yeah again.

this is #2. i am not taking things seriously. my face most of the time looks serious-whoa!no hitting below the belt man!-haha, but heed the fact that i’m not serious. i only appear serious yet i am blank, blank as the clear cloudless skies.how many skies there are?i don’t know except that when each looks up, one calls what is above sky, and so when we both look up, its skies.plural form yeah.

this is #3. hope this is the last one. no matter how negative or pessimist i sound, bear in mind that i’m never gonna give up. there ain’t no givin’ up on me honey, no matter what it takes or costs. haha..i’m as unstoppable as a beating heart and a rolling ball. i’m still playing and i’m gonna finish my thesis no matter what it takes and costs. a few pesosessss wont hurt.

 

good nyt april hope you don’t look too tired to make us think you’re getting along..haha..

UPMindanao Football Festival

Yesterday the football festival of the varsity did go well, I think. It was such an honor to wear an armband as a sign of being the captain of the team. It was then that I’ve remembered the famous line in Spiderman “With great power comes great responsibility.”
But hey! I felt so burdened wearing that thing. I thought that I’ve been asked to wear a chain. I felt the need of proving myself. I needed to stand up high and mighty. These didn’t happen though.
Actually, I was the most unlikely captain that a team could have because I remained so silent that one couldn’t hear me squeak. I was saddened by the thought of our teams losing.

Thank God I have my team with me. There were those who helped me realize that I don’t have to pursue feigning courage, rather thye made me realize how I should play with fun.
Self-evaluation:
I’m not a thinking player or maybe I’m just too slow to think while playing
I’m easily discouraged… well all of us are sometimes
I’m a very destructive person ( I always end up tearing all my shoes)
I easily bruise

once I get these things straight I’ll be indestructible!!! hehe

I have many wishes for the team that I dream of being its major sponsor someday…yehey!

Go UP Gooooo!!!!!

Fan-antic

Nowadays, its really everything about getting hot. The weather seem too hot that one could think that were really on the verge of facing Global Warming.This is really a threat. After all the CFC issues I realized that maybe we could prevent ozone depletion by using ceiling fans instead of air conditioning that costs much. I’ve seen many documentations especially the one which Al Gore presented and it was quite alarming how the Earth is really heating-up literally. But this is such a grave issue to discuss so why not consider using ceiling fans instead. Yup! I’ve seen them in most homes already. And there are things such as craftmade ceiling fans, ellington fans, and fanimation I’ve seen on the net. These fans work as decorations that can even be disguised through a chandelier!

It works like magic! In our house, we’ve had almost three ceiling fans and two stand-up fans. Without any prejudice, I really prefer ceiling fans that the latter because the air is well ventilated inside the house. The warm air is cooled down. And so are the homes where there are fans around. This makes the head of our irritated mom cool! You see you can always beat the heat whenever you decide from being creative and reasonable in home considerations. You can always be a fan-antic anytime when there’s heat to beat. (- o -)

Easy Help For My Dream House

It’s where everything should start- Dreams and later still dreaming of it more. In that way, one can think of aspiring for one’s goals in life. I’ve always had dream houses even when I was still young, I used to draw on sheets of paper scribbled constructions of my dream houses. The concrete houses I see on subdivisions aren’t as grandiose as the houses I dream of building in the future. And I start to live in that dream.

Then I wondered about the difficulty I’d encounter for the maintenance of such a big dream houses. Where would I get help in fixing things? I won’t always have time to check in tool and hardware shops to find all things I need. It would cost me much time. But the habit of delaying repairs can ruin a household eventually if taken for granted. So there’s always a need to make one’s self worry free from all the hassle of housekeeping. I came to realize that it doesn’t matter that one won’t be able to build one’s own dream house, what matters is that a simple house becomes a welcoming home.

“Rest In Pieces”

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine. you look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
Im in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

I really like this song it seems so sincere to a loved one. Hope you’ll like it too…

Soccer Mania

 

 

 

 

 

I am very happy being part of the UPMin Football Ladies Varsity. Soccer is such an important thing in my life because I get to show the other side of me in the field. I don’t care if I’d smell after the practices because I am happy being there. Among the best things that ever happen to any soccer player is winning a game. There is no sweeter victory than that which one strived for.

When you play soccer, be as carefree as the rolling ball and remember that there are many things in life that has been part of your life.

Girls do kick balls!!!

Numb-ation

this term entered my mind when i had done some self-evaluation during the sembreak. I felt lonely that I had thought of the things that are really missing in my life. My ife isn\t miserable, it just so happens that I am not contented with the life I have. According to one quote “Uncontentment gives birth to Ambitions” I am ambitious. I want my family to experience what others sometimes take for granted. This won’t take long for soon I am oing to graduate and I’m going to work hard so that I can helpmy family.Last October marked a new beginning to our lives- we now have the land for ourselves. Father has land somewhere in Binagyuhan(i’m not quite sure of this,i mean the place’s name) and the first tenant doesn’t give us back the profit from the land. I thought that when father brought it, there was the promise thta we would heve better income fo the land is abundant with mango trees. Father and the tenant had a fight(verbal) and he was asked to attend the trial(purok hearing) there{looks like father and I have a lot in common heehee}. I was afraid for him knowing that the place is inhabited by NPAs.

I think i’m gonna make a story about this when inspiration comes.

Yep, we were terrified when father wasn’t home yet. But he sure did make it and I am grateful for it. So the next problem comes what will happen to that land without someone tilling its soil? ummm…Papa will take care of it.

I have many dreams and everytime I pray that God will take care of me because I promise Him that I am going to help a lot of people someday…

Sometimes I feel sad when I see a lot of people suffering. I know I have my own sufferings too but I just can’t help sympathizing them. I feel sorry for them and for myself. I like too share their burden but I now that I am easily weakened by my own troubles.

I promise myself that I’ll make it no matter how hard things seem.

The HAPPYnings

i just happen to get excited with the EMA MTV awards. Ever since I was young I’ve loved music. I don’t have much time though in watching tv because I have studying to attend to but I always have my roommates to tell me about it. Khareen and Aimae know a lot of stuff in music. They even know songs that I am not familiar with. I like them because they are quite unique. Khareen is very proficient in old songs and she likes to listen to those mellow ones which reminds me  of those very long begotten past(‘o’) Aimae on the other hand is updated that she knows all the songs that aren’t even aired yet on the radio,i mean. She does a lot of  singing too. Sometimes I  think she doesn’t have the right tone but she gets away with all the dancing. I love them both for they are my friends.

what’s behind the name

What Aprildawn Means

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people’s problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don’t get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are very charming… dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let’s hope you’re a benevolent dictator!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

“Ang Pasiunang Bakak”

Mao na ang mga opisina ug kani sila nag mga cubicles. Kadto didto mao ang akoa, kani mao ang imong cubicle. Kini imong telepono. Ayaw kana’g tubaga. Ang Voicemail System na bahala niana. Mao ni ang imong Voicemail Sytem Manual. Dili ginatugot ang personal na mga tawag. Pwede ra og emergency. Kung kinahanglan nimo mag-emergency phone call pangutana usa sa imong supervisor. Kung di nimo siya makit-an, pangutan-a si Phillip Santos, kadtong nagalingkod didto, kay iya kining ipa-check ni Clarissa Nicolas, kadto siya didto. Kung magbuot-buot ka’g emergency phone call, basig matanggal ka.