It’s all about wishing for better things to happen in our lives. I have wished that my family will have better life.

the time I waited for you was long but it was worth it.

Now there will be more of the waiting,
less of the loving
more tears than laughter…

It is sad but it’s worth the fight

ACAPELLA:
Let me know, let me know
Ah – ha, let me know, let me know
Let me know
VERSE 1:
When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it’s hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know
There are times when I find
You want to keep yourself from me
When I don’t have the strength; I’m just a mirror to what I see
CHORUS:
But at your best you are love
You’re a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know. . .
VERSE 2:
When you feel what you feel
Oh, how hard for me to understand
So many things have happened before this love affair began
But when you feel, oh, like I feel
Confusion can give way to doubt
And there are times when I fall short of what I say,
what I say I’m all about, all about
CHORUS
BRIDGE:
Tell me what it is (Tell me what it is)
Make believe, no need to make believe
Look beyond your own (Look beyond your own)
Try and find another place for me
Cause. . .
CHORUS
Ah, ah, ah – ha
See, at your best baby

This is one of the songs of the late Aailiyah. She is still remembered at this very soulful song

First step, FOCUS— with focus, I can create plans– through plans, I can pursue action– then fulfillment. I think I’m veering away from my goals as a person. I think I’m looking at other people’s lives– caught up with much awe– overlooking my OWN. That can’t be that bad, isn’t it? My conscience says, IT IS. Just a thought out of nowhere: I think if ever I get a puppy, I’m going to name it COURAGE. Guess where that name came from? From a Nowhere dog! funny—————going back—-(see how I veered)—-now, I’m going to focus on the realities in my LIFE. not their’s, anyone’s or other’s BUT mine.

Bring it on!

DETER— oops— DETERMINATION is such a long word to read so if you don’t have that kind of character to go on–you’ll stop at the 2nd syllable. I have tons of this but the problem is I don’t get things done especially if there are other things bothering me. I’m sure I have determination running in my veins, I’ll get along.

INSPIRATION-we’ll talk about it later.

Now, I do have loads of it too. I find it very interesting as a motivation. From my 2nd sequel, I was out of inspiration but the 3rd one attests to how I’m so filled with it. I’m even getting an unlimited serving! Don’t bother, I’m not sharing! Get loads of inspiration from your loved ones and you’ll never miss a thing.

Did that. Done that. Been there.  The journey never ends the harder it becomes remember the plan. Do you have any? I have one: COURAGE-the cowardly dog once said “The things that you do for LOVE.”

Soseng is the primary character in the story. He is found at the beginning and at the close of the story: “Nang idilat ni Soseng ang kanyang mga mata, naramdaman niyang waring nagising siya sa isang panaginip.” I have read about “The Legend of Mariang Makiling” in my elementary years and I had thought that “Mariang Makiling” is just another of its versions. But I was wrong because the latter short story portrayed to me the situation of Soseng of Bae. The legendary figure of the fairy-goddess of the mountains Maria Makiling was only found in the young boy’s imagination. I first thought that this was going to be a love story with the touch of the supernatural, but this story was tragic because the boy was inflicted with the same disease that haunted his mother’s family as is evidently conceived in these lines: “Nang itayo na niya ang nakalulong banig sa sulok ng silid, natiyak niyang ang pagbabago ay hindi lamang nasa umagang iyon kundi nasa kanyang katauhan din. Hindi nga lamang niya maituro kung aling parte ng kanyang katauhan ang nagbago: maaring iba ang takbo at kulay ng kanyang dugo, o iba na ang lugar ng kanyang puso, iba na ang laki ng kanyang utak.” These lines reveal the difference that Soseng felt be it physical or psychological. Then and there, one can sense that something wrong will happen to him.

The alienating feeling that some people might feel in reading regional literature is breached by other’s early immersion in cultures found in some literary pieces. The literatures of Luzon, especially their legends and myths, are usually found in the textbooks used in schools. And I think that if I were to ask a child what stories he/she knows, chances are I’d get the same stories since Tagalog is a medium of teaching and most textbooks printed stories coming from those places. Since only their region’s literature was widely published. And “Mariang Makiling” as a character is among the popularized literary figures. The story’s intensity was brought about by the experience of a young boy. The omniscient narrator almost goes into the psyche of the Soseng and his character is justified by his actions. Although I cannot settle myself about Soseng’s age, the short story in itself can stand alone without that information. Their family was already plagued by a disease; and running away from his father revealed a tainted relationship, and readily believing an apparition implies something more. I think the appearance of the mother in the end, Soseng deafened and thinking wild and the imagined Maria Makiling becoming Jesus’s mother for him-contribute to the effect that the diverse makings of the author’s mind created as another yet impressive version of a displacement of a literary figure in regional literatures. This story reminded me more of death and of a boy’s flight from the cliffs-waiting for the same wings that would also carry Kakang Toya down to the rocky bottom of the shore- as he heard his mother’s call too late for the darkness that overwhelmed him before he landed.

I do hope everyone can go along with the tide of countries in tension. I do hope nothing would result to another world war. In this time and place, I do hope that issues get resolved once and for all.

i was touched by these love quotes. i hope that everyone who is in love can find in their hearts the emotion that outlives any other—- LOVE.

to be loved

um naa man pud mga tao na galove nako pero most of the times must ginaprefer nako na ako maglove kay para mas matimbang and para dili mako sila makalimtan. ok lang man ata kung ilove nimo mga people around you diba?

speaking of love, nindot kaayo mga lovestories na nabasa ko. I brought books sa booksale. Books nina Andre Dubus III and other writers. It was such a very good reading experience. hahaha.

I’m so excited na jud sa graduation kaya I’m making plans.

GEORGE SAND: There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

wow.ma-awe struck man ta ining George Sand oi. anyway for all people like loving and all want to be loved.goooo lang ng gooo.

p.s. now pako nagbalik sulat aning blog..hahha..miss it..

inuyahsa, ok lang man ko. hope nakita mo na imung nawala na tesaiga. (xa ako addressee sa diary entries)

Go, april kaya mo yan. gragrad ka dontya wori!!!

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

‘Cause they’d fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You’d think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems

‘Cause I’d get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball that’s just hanging by a thread

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
‘Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I’m far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I’m weird ’cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I’ll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
‘Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seems

hahha can’t get this song outta mah mind.hehehe…figure it out…better not stick to the song structure.

I just want that anyone to realize that I don’t want to be part of anyone else’s life. That I have no room for any other person in my heart and mind for I am one selfish @%%^&&*. i hate myself for doing things to people.

The harder it becomes 2

this is the 2nd time and by what is implied…it is but harder.

I’m no use for such situations. I am a useless piece of shit.

pardon the words.

Another thing though, stop hurting people whom you kinda, sort of $%^&^* coz u’ll end up dreaming and wishing that it didn’t happen and that it didn’t get harder.