the harder it becomes 1

whew..looks like i’ve had tough months-no blogging and no social life-and what’s hurting is that my thesis sucks.i don’t like how things are going and i don’t mind changing direction now. i think i don’t have enough time to do the things i want to. i want to read books and digest the stories slowly but i don’t have leisure time to do so. there are a lot of upcoming exams and events and i don’t kn ow if i can still have a quiet time i so desire.

this is #1. i’m so overly stressed. hey my knee joints hurt. maybe i need to drink arthricin(–,)> it’s all because of soccer. it’s always on my mind especially now that i’m appointed captain. yeah, i love being captain and i love playing but what stops me are my knees. imagine me being old with my knees giving up on me. funny yeah. anyway, i can’t give up soccer now. i just need to push myself harder and harder until it becomes so hard my feet runs away from me.funny again yeah again.

this is #2. i am not taking things seriously. my face most of the time looks serious-whoa!no hitting below the belt man!-haha, but heed the fact that i’m not serious. i only appear serious yet i am blank, blank as the clear cloudless skies.how many skies there are?i don’t know except that when each looks up, one calls what is above sky, and so when we both look up, its skies.plural form yeah.

this is #3. hope this is the last one. no matter how negative or pessimist i sound, bear in mind that i’m never gonna give up. there ain’t no givin’ up on me honey, no matter what it takes or costs. haha..i’m as unstoppable as a beating heart and a rolling ball. i’m still playing and i’m gonna finish my thesis no matter what it takes and costs. a few pesosessss wont hurt.

 

good nyt april hope you don’t look too tired to make us think you’re getting along..haha..

What’s with the smile?

“What’s with that smile?” I often ask people about this. I always smile when I’m happy and still I try to smile whenever I feel bad. I really don’t want to make people think that I’m sad because I want myself to appear happy even when things are actually going bad. The problem is….my eyes don’t lie.

Just like the old saying “the eyes are the windows of our souls.” I can’t keep looking stressed or worn-out because of my eyes.

What power do I have to turn away from other people’s scrutinizing gazes? I can’t. Instead I look back at them and wait til they themselves turn away from me. I can’t help but feel the difficulty in answering all those looks.

I am reminded of the same eyes that plunged into the depths of my being.

And I wanted to look into them again….

So that I may see my own self again.

The self who haven’t lost its sight in a world of happiness.

from Coach:”Soccerly yours”

This picture was taken during the 11th UPMin Ladies Football Festival.

Soccer peeps…

In relation to the annual soccer celebration every February, the team organizes a football festival, wherein they themselves conceptualize the awards. This team effort has been handed down to succeeding generations by the UP Min Ladies Football Varsity. The first football festival was held at the CSM field in 1997 February 9^th.

Up to this day, the UPMin Ladies Football Varsity Team continues to exist not only for themselves but also for a team and for the university. It is not a question of passion that remains but the love for it. It is not a question of who made it in history; rather it is about the value that one gives outliving many memories.

I have been a member since March 15, 2006 and at present. You know there is always one thing about playing soccer that keeps me from quitting; it is because of the team and because of the people behind it.

Sometimes I feel sorry that others had to say na “UP lang man na” It is how they underestimate us. We are indeed bringing the name of the university. I don’t blame them anyway because their burdens don’t include coping up with difficult-to-manage academics. It’s all too normal lang naman talaga. It’s not because we value our academics more rather it is because of other considerations in our lives. I don’t really know each of our constraints but there is one thing that goes for each of us: the passion for soccer( if this is all too vague to understand, then let it be as inexplicable as it goes for me) Personally, I wanted to stop playing soccer a few years back. I just thought that I don’t have the skill for it, the time for it. I’d put it on the least of my priorities, but all the while it stayed there…the more it asked for attention.

what’s behind the name

What Aprildawn Means

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people’s problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don’t get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are very charming… dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let’s hope you’re a benevolent dictator!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

Taurean

Taurus

Venus, when placed in the sign of Taurus, denotes a romantic, affectionate lover and friend. Rich beauty and sensuality are attributed to this placement and your emotions are stable and dependable. A lover with Venus in Taurus is likely to be enraptured forever and will be more responsive and devoted as the commitments get heavier. You often have a penchant for the finer, more luxurious things in life.You may spend a lot of energy on obtaining possessions and material objects for emotional security. Often there is a talent or appreciation for creativity and culture of any realm. Opera, fine food, wine, performance, art, and music will be enjoyed immensely. You are blessed with the capacity to savor each moment to the fullest extent, and instinctively seek out the beauty in your surroundings. However, you may want to watch out for a possessive streak! You will be happiest in a relationship that provides you with a real sense of belonging and stability.