What’s with the smile?

“What’s with that smile?” I often ask people about this. I always smile when I’m happy and still I try to smile whenever I feel bad. I really don’t want to make people think that I’m sad because I want myself to appear happy even when things are actually going bad. The problem is….my eyes don’t lie.

Just like the old saying “the eyes are the windows of our souls.” I can’t keep looking stressed or worn-out because of my eyes.

What power do I have to turn away from other people’s scrutinizing gazes? I can’t. Instead I look back at them and wait til they themselves turn away from me. I can’t help but feel the difficulty in answering all those looks.

I am reminded of the same eyes that plunged into the depths of my being.

And I wanted to look into them again….

So that I may see my own self again.

The self who haven’t lost its sight in a world of happiness.

Of Brains and Neurons

Alzheimer and Auguste D are two people whose lives have been intertwined by fate. Alois Alzheimer was a psychiatrist in the Castle of the Insane. It was maybe in Germany. I’ve forgotten the details because it was so long ago that I had reported about them.

I felt very bad because it’s so sad that some people especially those old folks lose memories. How sad that is! I don’t want people losing their memory because some of them we vowed to remember for the whole of our lives. It is a slow death isn’t it? Because sooner one would forget everything even chewing food! Do you think life is so complex that we don’t know what answers our main questions? I think I can’t help but feel sorry when that time comes.

When Alois Alzheimer asked Auguste some questions, she gave inconsistent answers. It was only when she died that the doctor asked the hospital if he could ask for the brain of his patient. Then and there he examined the preserved brain and saw that there were neurobrifillary tangles. The nerves of the brain were entangled together that it was the cause why and how the function of the brain went haywire. The folder about the physician’s first patient diagnosed of Alzheimer’s disease was found years only in the dust laden archives of the hospital (now a museum).

I saw a picture of Auguste in the magazine where I learned about this. I saw that her frail body has stopped fighting against reason and life. Her life has ceased when she was diagnosed with what then seemed a queer ailment, and memory like fuel was spent in her remaining days.

If sentiment is bad for a person then I wouldn’t deny that I’m always inflicted of it. There are times when I always look around and press myself to remember this very same day so that I won’t forget a single detail.

So all you guys out there please TREASURE all the memories you have especially with your loved ones. It’ll be worth it. If the brain stops working then let the memories freeze for another Alois to discover.

In a Twisted Manner

There she

sits

staring hard

on the wall

without nothing

but the fear of losing

him

who was

sooner gone.

BUSINESS as usual

I’ve been wandering inside malls and one thing that I like about window shopping is that I get to discover many events. At the atrium of the Gaisano Mall of Davao, I saw many booths offering their delicacies at very affordable prizes.

I don’t only see booths but also service tables where there one can inquire about service. These exhibit booths are found almost in any store for the convenience of the customers. It also a good way to sell products or services such as those in trade show displays. Nowadays, I think people are discovering more ways and means to cater each and everyone’s need-whatever they might be.

I bet each one of us wants to personalize our stuff, well here’s a nice discovery…

have you ever been in a shop where even the place mats not only contain “WELCOME”s?

well, I just knew that a shop can even own logo floor mats! whew. Imagine that kind of personalizing!

I just learned something: For you guys out there, if you want to invest in business, invest then to gain profit and make your business rock!

I have seen a performance then and I remembered well that the whole event was made extraordinary by the foundation-truss which molded the set into an enchantment- equipments.

Even business is a kind of performance!

Soccer Practice with sneeze

uh-oh, i just had shamed my self in front of many people because I had a flu and I couldn’t help sneezing inside the field. Well fellas, I justr didn’t get tha hang of being so yucky…

Anyway, it’s part of life that we get to have flu. Like in the commercials on the tv “ano’ng gusto mo, uminom ng gamot o magpasapak ng gorilla” It’s so funny nga eh. Afterwards siguro ng pagblog ko I’ll go to the clinic to check with the nurse. As in, masakit sa ulo if you have flu, plus I still have many classes pa.

So bawal talaga magkasakit lalo na sa mga panahon na ito na mahirap humanapo ng pera.

wahaaa…supposedly this is an english blog (‘,’)/

from Coach:”Soccerly yours”

This picture was taken during the 11th UPMin Ladies Football Festival.

Soccer peeps…

In relation to the annual soccer celebration every February, the team organizes a football festival, wherein they themselves conceptualize the awards. This team effort has been handed down to succeeding generations by the UP Min Ladies Football Varsity. The first football festival was held at the CSM field in 1997 February 9^th.

Up to this day, the UPMin Ladies Football Varsity Team continues to exist not only for themselves but also for a team and for the university. It is not a question of passion that remains but the love for it. It is not a question of who made it in history; rather it is about the value that one gives outliving many memories.

I have been a member since March 15, 2006 and at present. You know there is always one thing about playing soccer that keeps me from quitting; it is because of the team and because of the people behind it.

Sometimes I feel sorry that others had to say na “UP lang man na” It is how they underestimate us. We are indeed bringing the name of the university. I don’t blame them anyway because their burdens don’t include coping up with difficult-to-manage academics. It’s all too normal lang naman talaga. It’s not because we value our academics more rather it is because of other considerations in our lives. I don’t really know each of our constraints but there is one thing that goes for each of us: the passion for soccer( if this is all too vague to understand, then let it be as inexplicable as it goes for me) Personally, I wanted to stop playing soccer a few years back. I just thought that I don’t have the skill for it, the time for it. I’d put it on the least of my priorities, but all the while it stayed there…the more it asked for attention.

Perturbations of the Mind

i’m so stressed about all the many stuff that restrain me to be happy. I feel very sad whenever there are many opportunities that I get to miss because I haven’t done them well enough….haha just one of my emo being daily…